I need support from the gods

I have an appetite for material things. It isn't always this strong. I'm better off when I'm oblivious to buying and upgrading. These days, though, I'm constantly imagining stuff I want. It's hopeless. Meanwhile, I've strayed from my budget. It's just been an expensive time. I mean, my best friend from college is getting married in Seattle, and it's just completely out of my budget to go...but I'm going. I have to pay for a renewal for my phlebotomy license. Triple A is due. There are weddings and wedding gifts. It was time to buy new glasses. I sprung for a ticket to see Roger Waters do the entire "Dark Side of the Moon"-(that's cool, but not for the credit card!!!) I'm really sinking, by about $600. dollars. I just have to stop it.

I need support from the gods

I have an appetite for material things. It isn't always this strong. I'm better off when I'm oblivious to buying and upgrading. These days, though, I'm constantly imagining stuff I want. It's hopeless. Meanwhile, I've strayed from my budget. It's just been an expensive time. I mean, my best friend from college is getting married in Seattle, and it's just completely out of my budget to go...but I'm going. I have to pay for a renewal for my phlebotomy license. Triple A is due. There are weddings and wedding gifts. It was time to buy new glasses. I sprung for a ticket to see Roger Waters do the entire "Dark Side of the Moon"-(that's cool, but not for the credit card!!!) I'm really sinking, by about $600. dollars. I just have to stop it.

a setback?

I have been searching for a decent apartment, and this weekend I viewed a well-maintained, beautiful place in a great neighborhood. I liked the landlord, and she liked me. Unfortunately, 70 other people inquired about it, and in the end, I didn't get it. I am disappointed. Looking is hard, and what if this keeps happening, that the competition is just too stiff? I make a good impression; I'm stable, personable, and my credit rating is great. I think I probably stood a good chance of getting the place, but ultimately did not have the luck of the draw. Well...every month that I don't have to pay the extra $300., I should be happy in a sense. Right? And I'm not looking forward to moving, and I would have had to leave my beloved neighborhood if I took that place...

constant pressure

I got a windfall of $1,700. I often fantasize about how I would spend a windfall of $1000., or 5,000., or 10 or 20...Just as often, un-windfalls happen, so I'm not excited. I paid off some debt with $7oo, then put the other thou in my emergency savings, to make the first $1000. But any day now, I'm going to be moving into my own apartment from a place I'm sharing, and I will definitely be paying at least $300. more a month. It's strange: I am really serious about saving money. I really want to be frugal, but when I search for apartments, there are certain things I won't sacrifice. For example, I don't want to live in a studio apartment. That right there is a $300. distinction. And I have lived with people for years, but I can't take their bad furnishings and messes anymore. I vant to be alone!!!